sO do I oR don'T i

you know i never thought of myself as indecisive... kids perhaps create that in a person, that is my theory anyway. i think i spend so much time making decisions and creating fabulous meals, like for instance this evening, i created my favorite meal, Chinese take out! i am really good at making this meal... i measure out the basmatti rice into a container, i rinse several times, i add the required water, add a splash of sea salt (i said splash because in the ocean you splash not dash), you put on the lid - remembering to open the little vent hole, close door, hit 20 minutes on power level 7, open cupboard doors above microwave as sadly one day i did not make the rice for this amazing meal i am about to tell you about, and sadly power level 7 was not punched in on the microwave, so at full blast for 20 minutes an abundant amount of steam created a rather unpleasant reaction to my mocha stain on my cupboards, thankfully on the inside mostly... okay so while i wait for the rice to steam, i hear the garage door open and close, the microwave timer dings and whaaa laaahh, rice is done and chicken balls, sauce, Ginger beef, and Singapore noodles are ready... amazing how i did that hey!!! so yes my belly is round and full, which is okay as it was another day at the computer which usually involves forgetting to take a break and eat at all during the day! okay so back to my indecisiveness, i used to be the one who knew what she wanted and was able to make most decisions with pose and confidence, but that changed one day, and instead it is filled often with doubt, because if i can make the wrong decision once, i can certainly do it again. so now i doubt that shirt i bought, i doubt the vase, the picture, the bedspread... why oh why, they are not crucial, but i do. so now that i make decisions for my children i wonder if i am making the right ones for them, will they be upset at me when they are older because i did not make the right choice for them, and will they even notice the decisions i did make for them that were so right on, that they should hi-five me every time they see me even when they are 75 and we live in the same nursing home!!! wouldn't that be hilarious!
anyway, maybe it is just one of those days and i just needed to rant on a bit, sure hope tomorrow is brighter...

okay so as i had promised... i thought i should include a picture of the wedding i was at a couple months ago. keep in mind that the dress weights 60 lbs, and the headpiece is 20lbs alone. she was absolutely beautiful, and the other outfits she wore were just as beautiful, the one she wore the next day is at the end of my post, i loved the colors, and if you have ever wondered who buys bright blue and yellow eye shadow, well now you know!!



the picture below... i love the color of her dress, myself however, please keep in mind i am wearing one of her outfits and it is beautiful, but high waisted pants with a top that ends just below the ribs is just not that flattering on me... perhaps a moment of indecisiveness!!!